Last night and this morning I have been having a hard time dealing with my husband. God has been dealing with me in crucifying the flesh. In my morning prayer this morning I was going over the fruits of the flesh and the fruit of the spirit, again. ( Found in Galatians 5:19-25) I realized that in my flesh I wanted to strangle My husband. I knew that God loved him and wanted to use me to show Crickett His love. Again, If I couldn't love my husband how could I love the world, it starts with the home.
Anyway, I also knew that before I could love my husband, I had to receive an abundance so God's love could over flow to Crickett. I spent some time thinking and receiving God's love. While I was still a sinner, God loved me. I went through the list, receiving God's love,joy, kindness, gentleness, long-suffering.....I was doing good as long as my husband was sleeping.
When Crickett got up, I asked him if he would like some waffles. He said, " sure." I noticed that I only had enough eggs to make cookies, but not waffles. I called my neighbor, an older single guy, and asked if I could borrow a couple of eggs. The first thing he said when he knew it was me, was," Hi there beautiful." Boy did that make my day. I happily told Crickett what he said, as I was going out the door. to go get them. When my neighbor got to the door, he had four eggs, he asked, "what's for breakfast."
I said, "waffles" then I asked him if he wanted to join us. He said, yes.
I made breakfast as he talked with Crickett. After he ate and left, I was thinking, boy, I think I'll call him up everyday, just so I can hear those words. ( I sure don't hear them from my husband.) Then the Holy Spirit reminded me that, that was the flesh! Another realization of how strong the flesh is. How I like those complements! I then spent some time repenting. I had a hard time calming my flesh down. I prayed that God would help me to love the things that He loves and to hate what he hates.
Before dinner my husband and I went for a walk. It was starting to get dark and when I heard a dog barking I got scared,and grabbed for his belt loop. I was still a little raw, regarding dogs. Crickett gave me a little lecture,and when I commented, he came back with you can be a big B---- why don't you use that energy to go towards the dogs. That hurt! I wanted to respond. In the past, I would bring him up, especially if he does the same thing. I remembered that I was working on the fruits of the spirit. So, for the first time, I kept my mouth shut.
Oh it is so hard to crucify the flesh!
