"Fortress in Marriage"

Dear Readers,

As I've been continuing reading the book, Destroying Satan's Lies with God's Truth, I've been on the chapter of Principality of Rejection, I came to a part that talks about when your feeling rejected, and your spouse says, “I love you,”rejection says, “No, stay away from me. I refuse to be comforted, I will not allow you to love me.”

As I was reading that, I thought, is that what I'm doing? With all the stuff that has gone on in this marriage, am I allowing my husband to love me? Here, I have been telling him, that he has a fortress around his heart, and that he has anger, bitterness.... But if I'm not receiving what he can show or tell me, then I have a fortress around my heart, and I'm holding on to anger and bitterness. Lately I've been at the point of not wanting to kiss, touch or even have sex.

I realized that If I believed in Jesus, he was supposed to be my fortress, not my issues. I really want to be set free, and be able to receive my husbands love, so at the end of the chapter he said to write a list of ways that we have been rejected, and us rejecting other people. I wrote out the list of the main things that my husband has done or said that I took as rejection, also others. I then wrote the ways I have rejected people and my husband, like not kissing him, wanting him to touch me, all of these things. I then imagined pushing down the four big walls, (the fortress) around my heart. Trusting God, trying to stay soft and vulnerable. I then went through the prayer, and lastly, listened to the Lord, regarding the list.

Would you believe that after an hour of doing this, my walls did come down, and my heart had softened for my husband. I was actually able to go into the bedroom and make love to him.

So my Dear Readers, If you have a fortress around your heart, then I encourage you to push it down, and allow Jesus to be your fortress. Keep your heart soft, pliable, and vulnerable, so you can love and be loved.

"Playing A Game With Bitterness"

My Dear Friends,

Sorry about the delay on this blog., I hit a writers block, and I'm having trouble with my health, so I have not been feeling up to par.

I'm reading this book called “Biblical Foundations of Freedom,” Destroying Satan's Lies with God's truth. It is by, Art Mathias, I have been learning a lot, and God is using it to bring me into freedom on different issues.

I came across a good point that I would like to share with you today. It is helping me to change my perspective on marriage. Getting it more lined up with Gods perspective.

I have been learning about bitterness. It talks about, spending time with a bitter person, mentioning that when we encounter a person that is bitter, we play a game like tennis with them. We cop an attitude when we are around some-one who is bitter, so because of our own attitude, bitterness flows from our spirit towards them.

So, it ends up, me being bitter towards them, and then, they in turn become bitter towards me. (A tennis game in progress.)

I was thinking about this, and how true that is, especially in marriage. I repented of doing this, and decided instead of picking up a racket of bitterness, I would pick up a racket of love. Every time that he would throw out bitterness, I would hit the ball with love. And I would try to start the game with love and not cop an attitude.

This has actually helped me. I have gotten a more loving attitude towards my husband. And now I keep saying to myself I am going to hit that ball with love. And have actually found myself being able to do that. I guess that God is really changing my heart!

The Bible tells me that love does not fail!   My friend mentioned another verse that is very good,   1 Peter 1:8 ...Love will cover a multitude of sin.

I want to mention one more thing, There are seven things that are related to bitterness. Unforgiveness, resentment, retaliation, anger, hatred, violence, and finally murder. All starting with unforgiveness. Wow, now I know why Jesus made such a big issue with loving, and forgiving. And not even to go to bed angry.  Now, I know where it will lead.

So, I encourage you, and me, to hit that ball of bitterness or any thing else that is not loving, with a racket of love.

 And lets work on not going to bed angry.

Remember Love never fails!

 I'm speaking to my self also.

May God Bless You, my readers.