Dog Attack And Gods Protection

On Monday, (9-5-11) I had a pretty terrifying experience!   My husband Crickett, and I got up early to go to this guys house, to look at cars.  I'll call him Bob.  When we got there, there were about six dogs that were on the large property.  They looked like pit bull and something.  We walked around, looking at all the cars and stuff.   The place looked like a junk yard.  The dogs didn't bother us.   At one point, I was able to call one of the dogs over.  He sniffed my hand, and I gave his head a pat.

Bob needed to have his computer looked at, so Crickett, went into this small, over crowded trailer to help him.  I thought I would look around.   Very carefully, I made my way through a maze of stuff, amazed by all the different things that he had.   I walked past this small trailer where a young man was staying to help with the property.  I heard movement inside, so I quickly walked away. 

  I was looking in this one area, when one of the dogs, gave a loud bark.  The dog seemed far away.  I said, “It's OK,” then all of a sudden all the six dogs came at me.  Before I could blink, they were in front of me.  The dogs started to bark aggressively and nip, both my arms and legs.  I  walked backwards.   Panic and fear took over.  I was terrified!  I was afraid to grab something for defense.  I was afraid they would  get angrier.   I was getting more and more scarred.  I didn't know what to do.  The dogs knew that I was scared.  I did not want to make matters worse by screaming, so with some control, I calmly yelled,  "help me, Please!   Help me!"   It seemed liked forever.  The dogs were not relenting.

Finally, this guy came over holding this six foot stick.   My rescuer!   He told the dogs to get back and escorted me to where my husband was.  I was never so glad to see someone, in all my life.  I don't know what would of happened if he was not around.   How long could I have held off the dogs?  Was I going to be eaten alive?     I was very, very, shook up!   I started to cry.   One nip was so hard that it made a big bruise on my leg and a small hole where a tooth broke the skin. 

My husband was so preoccupied with the computer that when I came in, he hardly noticed.  They did not realize the significance of what just happened.  Without even looking, my husband asked if any skin was broken.   I said, I didn't think so.   He said, “You'll be ok.”  Then Bob added, “I'm sorry that you had to experience that.”

The computer was pretty messed up.    Crickett was trying to fix it and put these virus protectors on it.   We were there for hours and hours.  When they wanted a break they would go out side.  I would stay in the small trailer and just cry, to afraid to go out the door.  At one point in the afternoon, I was ready to go out

side with them, but when I saw a dog close by, I quickly changed my mind.

Finally it was time to leave, I held on to Cricketts hand for dear life.  I made sure Bob was close by.  I heard the dogs following behind, panic set in again.  I quickly jumped into the truck, heart pounding a mile a minute.

After getting home and eating a quick meal, I called a friend for prayer.  I needed peace!  Crickett  gave me a hug and I just cried and cried, the thought of all those dogs, really freaked me out..

                                                    Very, Very, Traumatic!

  

I've been encouraged that if that happens again, to pick up something to defend my self.    If your going to go down, go down fighting.   Also, a dog may try to bite the back of the neck, so clasp your hands together to protect that area.   With elbows forward, try to protect your face.  If you have a knife, use it.  And If at all possible stay standing.  If you fall down, they will think they won, and may not give-up. 

In the midst of all this, I want to give Praise to God.   As bad as it was, (and it was very bad!) it could have been worse.   The dogs could of violently growled and bit me all over.   They could of torn me into pieces.

I also want to Praise God For the location the dogs came after me.  I had walked in places that no one would of heard me.  I also Praise God that, that guy was in the trailer and that he heard me. 


                               And I Praise God that I'm still alive to talk about this! 

I  want to leave you with this.  In Romans, 8:28  It says,"I know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose."       I believe that God is going to use this in many ways.  May you all be Blessed and be SAFE!

"Marriage, crucifying the flesh"

God is dealing with me strongly, regarding my marriage.  Since all ministry starts with the home and goes outward.  I can't love the unlovable, if I'm having trouble in my own house.  I have a friend that God has dealt with in her marriage.  She is very hard on me. The things that she tell's me is straight forward and  very hard to hear.  But I want to change, and I know that deep down she is right.   So, I want to encourage you ladies to hear whats hard to hear.  My goal in sharing all this is that you may grow and become the women and wives that God wants you to be.   May God give you the grace to hear and the strength to change.

In Colossians 3:5-10,&12-15,&17

It says, put to death your members which are on the earth, fornication, uncleanness, passion, evil desire, and covetousness which is idolatry.   Because of these things the wrath of God us coming upon the sons of disobedience in which you yourselves once walked when you lived in them.    But now you yourselves are to put off all these: anger, wrath, malice, blasphemy, filthy language out of your mouth.  Do not lie to one another, since you have put off the old man with his deeds, and have put on the new man who is renewed in knowledge according to the image of Him who created Him.

12-Therefore, as the elect of God, Holy and beloved, put on tender mercies, kindness, humility, meekness, long suffering; bearing with one another, and forgiving one another, if anyone has a complaint against another; even as Christ forgave you, so you also must do.  But above all these things put on love, which is the bond of perfection.  And let the peace of God rule in your hearts, to which also you were called in one body; and be thankful,

17- And whatever you do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the father through Him.

We have to crucify our old nature and be alive to God.   My friend wanted me to read about Jesus and the crucifixion and see what He went through.  For to crucify the flesh is going to hurt, real bad!  Having to die!   Well, I was to see this very soon, my husband yelled at me sharply.  I did not want to have any thing to do with him at that moment.  I wanted to be as far from him as possible.  I went into the bathroom and cried, prayed, and had a tantrum.  My husband asked if I was going to the bathroom, or hiding.   Ooh, I was so mad.  I finally got my self together and slowly came out and said, "Crickett, stand up."  He did, I gave him a hug and said, “I know that you are frustrated and don't feel well, I'm sorry.”   Then I went into my bedroom.   I did not want to be around him.  I felt good that I was able to give him a hug, but I diffidently was not at a forgiving level.

I learned how you respond to someones sin, can be sin.   My husband yelled at me sharply, which was a sin. My response was anger, unforgiveness, resentment, and not wanting to be near him.   So, to his one sin, I committed four!  It took almost all night, before I would even lay near him.   I did not want to put the old nature to death.  It is so hard!   I just have to focus on the fact that Jesus forgave me and he loves me unconditionally and he wants me to forgive and love my husband unconditionally.  I kept praying that God would touch my husband, but the hard part is knowing that God wants to use me, to touch my husband.   It is so hard to give up hurt and unforgivness, and walk in unconditional love.

My friend also said that the only person that can change is YOU!  YOU have to look at your self as the problem and change you.   Ladies we are going to be held accountable for all of our actions and I don't think God is going to accept excuses.  You can no longer concentrate on what God can change in your mate, you have to concentrate on what God can change in you.   If you do that and nothing is different in your situation, just having a changed out look, can change your marriage.  My friend also reminded me that just maybe what takes the man to change is when he sees the miracle in you!

My friend shared that she never imagined her marriage to be where it is today.  God has truly done a miracle! Knowing her and praying together are giving me hope, strength and the will to do what is right.   Marriage is hard work!   You have to die to yourself and think of others more highly then you.  This process seems like it's going to take forever before you see something good come out of it.   But, what gives me hope is that my friend is seeing the fruit of her labor.   If God can do it for her, he is big enough to do that for me, and for you!   So ladies, the truth is, there is hope.

Together we are on the journey of life.  Together, we will learn, grow, and change.

May God Bless you all!  

Pregnant and.........(For-Giving Self)..

I'm going to be very transparent and take a great risk. Oh, for the mercy of God. When I was growing up, I was looking for love in all the wrong places. I was dying for love. Now when I had sex, that's when I felt the most love. So, I got very promiscuous. At around 25, I gave my-self to the Lord, Body, mind and soul. For over a year I had sustained from any sexual relations. I had just gotten filled with the Holy Spirit and going to a Vineyard church.

I ended up going to Nebraska with this guy, (another story) I gave up my job, my church and my apt. Telling him that I was not going to have sex till marriage. I gave up my job, my church and my apt. Well, one thing led to another and we had sex. The moment we were through I knew that I was pregnant.

Deep down in side, I wanted to marry a missionary and knew that I was not in a good relationship. I wanted to die. I felt hopeless, and that my life was ruined. I gave up place, church, job, everything, I didn't know what to so. I called a pastor form the yellow pages and he assured me that my life was not over and that I could go back to California and make things right.

I talked with my parents. My Dad was going hunting in Colorado and that he would me meet and we would drive back to Ca.. together in my car. It so turned out that my pastor from the vineyard was doing a conference in Colorado. So I made arrangements to go to the conference then meet my Dad.

After my pastor preached they played the song, “Jesus Loves Me” I just started to cry and cry. I really did not know why I was crying. Then they played “Holy, Holy, Holy.” I realized I was crying because of the pregnancy. I went to my pastor and told him that over a year ago I committed my-self to the Lord and that I gave in and got pregnant. Could he pray for me and the baby. He did.

While I was walking back to my seat, the Holy Spirit said, “You have to forgive yourself” At that time, I had no confidence in me, so I started to look for someone to pray with me, to help me forgive my-self.

I desperately looked for someone, but every one was busy worshiping and did not seem to be at a place where I could interrupt them. I really looked! So, now I would have to do this all by myself. (Oh, how good God is, how when you take a step in His direction, he runs to meet you.) I took a deep breath and said, “Brenda, I forgive you for having sex, and I forgive you for getting pregnant.”

As soon as I said that, God delivered me! I felt pure and Holy! I felt like I had a born again virginity.

Even though I was carrying a baby, I knew that God saw me pure and Holy! I was jumping for joy.

God revealed how necessary and powerful forgiving self really is. God showed me His love,His mercy, and His compassion. This experience was a pivotal point in my life. From that time on, God has been healing and restoring my life.           

                                     I pray that this openness can touch someone's HEART today.             

To Be Bold For Christ!

To my new friends

I have been dealing with fear and rejection my whole life. God is delivering me. I do not want to walk in Fear on this blog sight. I choose to step out in boldness! I want to bring hope and encouragement. Salvation, which is being saved, deliverance, restoration,forgiveness, healing, joy, peace and love. Is brought about by the word and standing up and being a doer of the word and not a hearer only.

God's Word brings life. Jesus told us to love our enemies, To bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you. That is HARD. But that is what God wants. In Matthew chapter 10 it talks about Jesus is bringing division, not peace but a sword. Enemies will be in your own house. Jesus goes on to say that we will be hated by all for His names sake. Jesus say's “ Do not fear those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. But rather fear Him who is able to destroy both soul and body in hell.”

He goes on to say in Matthew 6 “Blessed are you who when they revile and persecute you and say all kinds of evil against you falsely for My sake. REJOICE and be exceedingly glad for great is your reward in heaven, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before you.” Now whoever confesses Jesus before men, Jesus will confess before the Father who is in heaven.

I have been greatly afraid of what men say and think. I have been taught not to make waves. I have been afraid to stand up. I am not going to be able to stand if I don't practice standing and proclaiming that Jesus is the King of Kings and Lord of Lord's.

I choose to be bold and transparent. If you my readers hate me for it, then so be it. Now, folks, this is growth! It would be much easier for me to give feel good poems, and light testimonies but that would not help me, or you in the end. I desire to give hope with growth.